Basically, finals are coming. And finals make law school even worse than it normally is. So instead of my usual two-times-per-week of seriously considering dropping out to be a baker/florist/youth minister/school librarian/wedding planner/{insert any career here, because they pretty much all sound better than law school}, I'm up to oh... 17 times per week or so. And it may or may not be the case that at least two or three of those times involve little crying episodes. It's bad.
And while I'm quite thankful for Jeff's nice engineer salary, it makes it a little too easy to decide in my head that the whole lawyer thing isn't worth it and I should just be a secretary. I was a secretary once for a fancy downtown-Houston-14th-floor-of-a-fancy-building company for a summer. I was really, really good at it. To this day, I can use a copy machine like nobody's business. I fix the printers at law school a lot. And I'm super good at being organized.
Yeah. This is where my head is at currently. Not good, friends. Not good.
Anyway, even if I decide to open that hypothetical florist shop, it's probably a good idea to at least finish out the semester, right? Haha. So I'm studying for finals, which means Spirals & Spatulas may be a little empty for a little while. But don't fret, I'll be back with bells on (and hopefully with some sort of decent class rank) after December 17th!
Prayers would be much appreciated. Especially this Thursday, next Monday, and next Friday.
And for all you other students going through finals right now, I've found this Bible verse to be reassuring so I thought I'd share:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Sigh. Why is it that I can't seem to just stop worrying so much about finals and grades and job placements, and instead trust that God has a perfect plan for me already worked out? If you've figured out a way to make yourself do that, please (please!!!) share. :)
Good luck! And THANK YOU for sharing that Bible verse...I'm graduating undergrad and trying to figure out where it is I want to go to law school. Already, I'm facing those little debates in my head of "do I really want to go through all that stress?" I really appreciated this post.
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Good luck! As you know, the first year of law school is said to be the hardest (not that I've ever been) so just make it through this year and then see how you feel. I'm in between jobs right now and times are tough, so I'm trying to remember that there's a plan for me out there too somewhere!
ReplyDeleteGood luck with all of your finals, I completely understand what you're doing through. Well basically, not the law school part of it. But definitely the stress. Always remember to eat healthy and get enough sleep, it'll definitely make you feel better and give you more brain power.
ReplyDeleteNot to be the bad guy or anything, but do you ever feel like law school is kinda a waste of time if you really just want to be a stay-at-home mom in a few years?
ReplyDeleteYou can do it...I'm in the thick of finals right now as well for my master's in speech language pathology. It will all be worth it in the end! :)
ReplyDelete@ Miss Puppy Love - what an exciting time you're going through! feel free to email me if you have questions (I know before I started I wanted to know all sorts of things just about what law school is like!).
ReplyDelete@Lindsey - that's what I keep hearing... I'm a little afraid it's just a rumor they created to stop the first-years from dropping out ;o)
@Jayme - hmm. I had kraft bluebox macaroni for lunch. That's healthy, right? Ha.
@Betty - ahh good luck!!
@Anonymous - good question! I'm not sure if this is directed specifically to me (because I don't think I've ever really said on here that I want to be a SAHM), or if it's just a general question, but the basic answer is yes, I think law school would be a waste of time (and an even bigger waste of money) for someone whose plan was to have kids at age 25 and never work again. You'd spend your whole life paying back student loans, and you'd never get a chance to enjoy the benefits of all the studying and stress. But for me personally, the circumstances are a little different, so I think it's worthwhile. I'm actually going to write a post on this (balancing SAHM plans with lawyer plans) because I think it's so interesting! Keep an eye out on the blog tomorrow. :)
Good luck with exams. My hubs is about to start them and he is going crazy studying. I know how you feel about trying to remember there is a plan. I despise my job, but I can't even blog vent about it because someone I work with might read it. I unfortunately am stuck in a really bad situation with no where to go until I find another job. Hopefully we'll both come out on the other side enlightened and happier. Good luck and they'll be over soon!!
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